Wow

Its official...

I read my past blog entries and I sound like a total freak

I love music

Now I know I am not the only one who feels emotional while listening to music:

I cry from music, just like this kid.  But seriously, how adorable?!?!!?!  Sometimes I can literally feel the music running through my body and I just do not even know what to do with myself, it's a crazy intense feeling!  It is one of the better feelings I have felt thus far.  The best part is that the feeling will come no matter what type of music I am listening to, whether it is rap, country, pop, etc.  However, I have a special place in my heart for 80's music!!!

IF YOUR NUMBER ONE STATION ON PANDORA IS 80's POP MUSIC.... we need to get in touch!

Oooh!

There should be a dating site that matches people based on the likes that are given to songs!  I do not have a lot of experience, but it's incredible when you can connect with another individual who has similar music interests.  Especially if headphones happen to be in your ears 90% of the day.. GUILTY!

Is it sad to say that listening to music is better than human interaction??  Nahh, only sometimes it is.  Music is always there for you, especially when you are no longer friends with your best friend.  That's another story..

I think that I am going to compile a list of my 20 absolute favorite 80's songs for my next blog.. it's going to be totally tubular dude!

Thought Catalog

Seriously folks, check Thought Catalog out!

I am so unbelievably OBSESSED with this website right now..  I have two bookmark folders for Thought Catalog, "Thought Catalog" (which are already read posts and ones that I would like to keep for future reference) and "Unread TC" (which are all the posts I have yet to read.)  I think the unread posts are almost at 50 right now....

I was going through the website tonight and I happened upon an article titled: "A Love Letter to Confident Women."*

As a woman who recently had her heart broken, I can tell you all about that later, I am a sucker for these types of posts.  Mostly because he nailed it!  Basically everything he wrote about is the type of woman I see myself as!

I will make my opinions known and sometimes I might get overly worked up about those opinions.  I expect to be listened to, because I will do the same for you.  I will challenge your beliefs and I want you to challenge me back.  Please don't be intimidated by these things.  If you are, I can narcissistically say that you are missing out.

Well that's all for now,
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*Here is the link to the post: http://thoughtcatalog.com/warren-talbot/2014/01/a-love-letter-to-confident-women/

Welcome Back!

Hola!

I am baaaaacccckkk!  I decided to give this a try again!  I was reading all my old blog posts and let me tell you, my life is sooooo different!  WOWZAS

Operation Update:
*I am now 21 years old
*I am not any closer to being an adult
*I no longer have a boyfriend..
*I have zero motivation!

The zero motivation and all the posts from Thought Catalog I have been reading are the two main reasons why I decided to come back to my blog.  Also, I bought this awesome journal.. but I basically failed at keeping that up.

Well, it's late and I am zonking* out.. so peace out girl scout!

Yours always, .....


*falling asleep

UPDATES

Well helllllo world..  Summer is practically in full swing as I have started my summer reading.  I first came onto the computer so I could start a reading list.. but I realized that I have not blogged in awhile, so here I am.  I have completed two books so far and am currently on my third.. this book is Something Borrowed which has not won my heart so far, but I do not give up on books that easily.  I have also checked out A Bend in the Road because my bucket list includes reading every novel written by Nicholas Sparks, no matter how unbelievably cliche and cheesy they may be haha.  My mom also bought me The Hunger Games today and I am suuuper stoked to read that book because I have recently seen the movie in theatres with a friend!

Well thinking about my summer reading has lead me to realize that I had a goal for May.. and it is pretty much safe to say that I will not be achieving this goal.  I am very sorry and I am hoping to complete this goal.... in the very near future, at least before my Game Boy Color dies *knock on wood*.

On another tangent, I would like to point out that I love summer!  My acne, gross I know, gets pretty bad during the school year due to stress.. but currently, I have virtually zero blemishes and that just makes life all the more better!  I am also going to a Twins game tomorrow with my mom, grandpa, and boyfriend.  I am in no way a fan of baseball... but we have really good seats and I can pretend that I am a sports photographer, which would be an awesome job to have.  Oooh! I have also finally looked into Spotify, which is, in my opinion, ten times better than Pandora.  Except, I can never really think of songs... so my playlists are fairly limited to songs that I have heard on Pandora and hits on the radio.  But have no fear, I will get better at this haha.  Most of all, I am just really excited to start lifeguarding again!  I do not know who is all working at the pool this summer, but I am excited.  I just love sun and the pool.. I literally wish I could lifeguard all the time, rather than have a "grownup job."  However, that is another story for another day.. but goodnight! :)

Yours always, .....

The big one:

Well, maybe it is about time to inform you that yes I do have a boyfriend.  No, he is not an internet boyfriend.. he is real and ya.  I end that sentence with a ya because S hit the fan.. a disagreement on something that turned into a fight.

Sadly, I have not been sleeping too well lately and the fight happened much later than it should have.. so that is mostly how it escalated.

Well anyways, my boyfriend has this philosophy about doing everything for himself.. and somehow I have yet put into his brain how utterly selfish that sounds.  I mean, just looking at the words in print: I do everything for myself.. makes me cringe.  (Maybe I should show him how it looks on a piece of paper and he will maybe get it)   And when those words come to my mind I think about my parents and I do not know the whole story between them, but I ultimately see them doing things for themselves and after a long list of things, I see a marriage that has grown apart.  When there are two people involved in something that is so important, I believe in the thought that I want to do what makes that other person happy.  My philosophy: Doing things for others before myself.

After two years and hardly any fights that have amounted to this big of a deal.  Meaning that we are over it and can hug and kiss and not be upset anymore after it has happened.  It gets oneself thinking about a lot of things.. for example, how completely different we feel about a lot of things.

On a side note: Gosh, no wonder there are so many dang books about relationships.. anything and everything can happen in a relationship.  But one thing that I truly believe in is that two people need to do whatever is best for the other before themselves.  That is honestly the only thing that makes sense in my mind after this argument.  Maybe I am wrong and my boyfriends opinion is also not correct, but whatever it is... I doubt even the books know the answer haha.

What is completely weird and a semi-new feeling is that I still could not stop talking to him before he went to bed without saying I love you..  After this fight and other fights that do not even matter anymore, we could always say I love you to each other.  I may not necessarily want to jump the gun and text him the second I wake up tomorrow, but I can still honestly say that I love him.  And I find it incredible.. because there is no way that I am over the fight, but I know deep down that ultimately this was not worth it and we will move on.  But the realization of it all is just mind blowing and I am really hungry now.  However, I have brushed my teeth and have to wake up kind of early tomorrow.  I have vented, stated how I feel in a roundabout way, and feel much better.. so with that, I say goodnight world!

Yours always, .....

The First 48

and no, not the show.. but the time before my first final, which actually was not as boring as I thought it would turn out.  I actually got quite a bit done and I believe that I got a 100% on my math test... here comes the disappointed face when I do not get that! :)

Well now it is Monday and I have finished my second final!  Which means that I have to turn in a paper and two finals left!!  ROCK ON.. but I am having a really hard time studying for my last two because I started packing up my stuff and now just have my eyes on the prize*.

Anyways... I was suppose to work for a few weeks in May before I start lifeguarding, but that job fell through sadly.  So I have come up with my goal for May:  When I was younger and mowed the lawn for my parents, I racked up the money!  Well with that money I bought myself a nice new green Game Boy Color and a few games.  One of the games was/is The New Adventures of Mary-Kate and Ashley and I have yet to finish the game because there is no such thing as save!  and now for my goal!

I WILL COMPLETE THE GAME!

Well that is all for now.. wish me luck on my last two finals and my goal for May :)
*Prize = the long drive home on I94

Yours always, .....